This time last year I was unemployed, broke, and suicidal.
Today, I just got the keys to my first house.
Give it time.
Needed this today
when you hear people preach that it gets better, they aren’t joking. if it’s not better yet, it will be.
this post could literally be saving lives rn and that is why i love this website.
And not a one of them good.
(And of course you’re prolly going to see this and get pissed, but honestly I’m 95% validated for the rant pertaining to you and that fuckhead and you fucking know it)
-I want to put my pants on, grab the two by four that keeps the sliding glass doors secured and jump the fence to bash in my neighbors fucking back porch light.
-I really want to go clean the entire house spotless and clean up the fucking shards of glass that are still about on the kitchen counters because your stupid fuck boyfriend can’t get mad and not fucking break something.
-a second part to cleaning the house is because the past 8/9 days since finishing intern I have been home 85% of the time and have cleaned deep one time just to see if any one else would and not once since has the house been cleaned. By any of the other three fucking people who live here. Hell I’ve picked the kitchen up and done the dishes more times than I can count this week.
-again learn to load a fucking dishwasher you stupid fuck
-that fucking cat. Idk how many times now we have had the conversation “it’s either in or out, the fleas are going to get bad again” and each fucking time “yeah you’re right, no more outside” and each fucking time I come home that fucking cat is outside again. And guess what! I’m covered in fucking flea bites again and it isn’t even my fucking cat. I swear I’m either going to get rid of the damn thing for you or take it to get shaved next time I see it outside. Fucking ridiculous. Not just for me. But you’re tormenting your fucking cat too. Do you think she likes to constantly be itching and biting at herself. NO!
-this fucking exam next week. Which determines if I am going to successfully pay off the 13000 dollars in student loans or fucking commit suicide under the failure. Has got me stressed the fucking fuck fuck out.
-why are you so fucking hot at night!? It’s like sleeping with a fucking volcano next to me. And the fact that we share a fucking full sized bed doesn’t fucking help. Go take a fucking ice bath for crying out fucking loud. I’m going to die of a heat stroke.
-fuck everything. I will never again in my life live with roommates. EVER. I’m too fucking high strung and OCD for this shit.
-seriously! How are you not dead from a heat stroke!? You have to be like 200 degrees. I mean I’m fucking sweating. And I hardly ever sweat.
- Do not forget Michael Brown
- Do not forget how the media dehumanized him and tried to justify his murder
- Do not forget how peaceful protests were painted as savage riots
- Do not forget police armed with military grade weapons terrorized and arrested black civilians
- Do not forget Darren Wilson being awarded over $200,000 in fundraiser donations for murdering an unarmed black child
- Do not forget that this system was not built to defend us, but to control us
- Do not forget Ferguson